life is such a drag

ahhhh! life has been sooo painful these last few dayz!! i have had my good moments like the easter presentation n seeing my friends (post in 1st blog)....i nearly lost my voice about 2 days ao or 3 dayz ago due to faustration n screaming~ my head was like spinning n i was dizzy n just like aghhhhhhh!!! n owww! its jst annoying!! n yea got sick n all! been to hospital, thye gave me lyk sooooo much medicines n all tht! yea! sux! some r sooo freaking bitter lah!! anyway....yea.....n then today i have to go back again so cuz of tht cnt go to cheer practice-smthn i dnt really mind (i have ma reason)-haha! so yea! tht sucked a bit tho! anyway....today mornin w as a bit cheerful n some 2 pissed me off again-lol....this week going to malacca i hope its like awsomeee! i need some awsome trip to keep me peacefull n all! jst a relaxing place with no f***d up drama! hehe! i hope its awsome lah! still trusting God lah! his plans r perfect! so far so goood i guez! ma holidays hasnt sucked as much as i thought xcept my very few rages!! :) (A)
bt wtv lyf goes on~! the world wud revolve, life wud go on, whether m sad or not! so i might as well b happy n live it to the fullest i guess :)
peace n luv!
take care :)

life as a cook book?

i was just being random when i heard a quote n thought about it
it said "dont u wish life was a cook book where every recipe was a cook book where everthing had a recipe to show how exactly it should b made"
in simple english(tht is simple enuf but...) wot if we had "something", just anything tht controlled stuff....u know....so tht we wont make mistakes n stupid ones as well......smthn like tht
tht wud b cool la.....v wnt make stupid mistakes, n tht thought had me going for a while until realized even with a "cook" book, sometimes the recipes we make ourselfs are the best recipes :)
sometimes the choices we make oursleves r the best 1s n it ma take 1000 trials n errors n mistakes to get there bt most important is tht u got there right? n when u realyz how good it feels to finally suceed, u also realize tht it was sooooooo worth the wait? atleast it feels good tht u got there urself n dident use some rules or smthn people wrote 4 u!
one day of a similar situation occurz n therz no "recipe", wotchu gonna do right? hehehe
so yea......even thought life may b so messed up n annoying sometimes its kinda worht the w8 to figure things out of ur own.....it may take sum nail bitting, destroying of things and faustration bt u wud get there n trust me it will feel sooooooooooooooo good u wnt regret it one bit ^_^
thts about it 4 nw
tc

wow! tht was a wierd feeling!

its exlained better in my 1st blog-wot m about to write is jst smthn i dident feel lyk writing there cuz tht blog every 1 sees it bt this 1 has less followers so i tell only few people wen i update (like 4 or 5 pple) wen i update i dnt really let pple come here much-hehe! so i put important stuff here=:p lol
damn la! on saturday wen i let my self go so fast when things got down, i got so freakn depressed=u shud av seen me! i wa sbeing rude to ma bro with no intentions of being rude-it just came! i left the bbq party around 5.00 nstead of 6.00 and stuff and just left! on the way was just thinkin, many thoughts were runnin through my head! it was such a wierd scary feeling, i was thinking of soooooooo many things tht i snapped when sum 1 interrupted me! ahhhh!......sigh
so i talked on9 with some frenz n stuff, just a few i felt lyk talking too and i talked to claryn hu i wasnt even close to, i just new her frm CA, dident even talk to her much just hi n bye! but wot she said made alot of sense, probably the best advice i had heard all weekend-hehehe-altho it was a bit pissing la on certain occasions wen i dident get wot she was talking about, i mean i got it obviously bt i dident really "get it" like i stil wondered y on different level-its had to xplain
ok so yea-bla bla! anyway this morning i woke up and i was like tht was 1 stupid weekend! i shudent have let my self snapped like tht-lol! wow! things r deffinetly easier said than done, n i have alot of theories n experiences to prove tht-haha! so yea lyk i was saying this morning, woke up, did my devotions and read some scriptures n quotes n all tht pastor jeremy had given at camp n stuff-XD.....so erm yea, decided not to give up-hehe! jeeze! no ones lyf is perfect, if u say ur life is perfect u r a tru lier, but if u say u make use of wat u go, make lyf count n focuz on the good stuff-then i can whole heartedly believe u! ^_^
tths it 4 now
chao!

new me...out with the negativity, in with the positivity ^_^

usually id write this in my 1st blog bt i wanna put it here 4 a while be 4 there-hehe
so frm da 1st blog, u noe i went to a youth camp!
hehe-it was the best thing tht ever happened to me la!
so some pple hu r close to me know tht i cn b pretty "locked up" if ud put it tht way-haha!
m a bit emo-nt so much la-i said a bit-hehe! sometimes i clearly state hw i totally hate life n stuff! :).....
i also realized tht i have never written a poem about happiness bt its always sad angry poems or smthn-lol n well m pretty negative ^_^.....its nt ma fault bt wot cn i say ^_^
so ive decided to become absolutely positive-hehe-no seriuzly!
totally positve, m going to live life to the absolutely fullest, b the best i can b in everyway!...seriuz!
the sermons in camp made me realize hw stupid i am when i hold on to the past or totally break down when life sux, life isnt easy-every 1 noes tht! bad and horrible things wud always b thrown in ur face bt it doesnt mean u stand there and allow it to b thrown at u and totally break down!, it means u stand ur ground, b firm and b true to yourself!!! and u cnt always give up when life is bad trust me it wont get any better infact more stuff there wud b more stuff life has to throw at u! and u better pull urself together n b storng , atleast tht what i plan to do!! :)
life is once! only once! once once once! think of tht! m nt just gonna sit there n watch it pass me by............ITS ONCE FOR GOODNESS SAKE!!!!........i gotta make every moment count!
so yea those r my reasons to the sudden change and my new reason 4 being possitve and nt giving up so easily ;) ^_^.......hu ever may find me wierd for this and say its cliche n cheezy....u think thts ma problem? haha-if ur answer is no then u r right-ur decisions doesnt harm me-lol-thts ur problem nt mine keep ur opinions to urself ;) .....m nt here to please the world!! ^_^

extra random stuff:-
my fav songs for this week :-

"run" by hillsong united
"the stand" by hillsong united